This is my story. I am not a psychologist or counselor. I am writing this to free myself from the weight I carried for 43 years. I was sexually abused for many years, by many men. Mostly family members. And a mother that couldn't love and protect a lost child. I spent so much of my life hiding the abuse, that I never found myself. My self destruction, led me to a life of heartache. Maybe writing this will give me the freedom from the betrayal and save someone else. Everything I share, is the truth. The snowball effect from the abuse. I will not candy coat my life. Walk with me as I share this life with you.